So it's upon us, the New Year. I wonder what this one will bring. Last year hosted a flurry of health challenges, medical tests, relationship meltdowns (well, one -- but it was a BIG one) and family worries. There was a lot of stress and some disappointments.
But there were also some major joys. I got to move into and decorate the FIRST house/cottage I've ever lived in by myself. I got a cat, who has become my joy, then I got another cat who I've already fallen in love with. I'm taking charge of my health by starting to exercise regularly again and feel terrific, I've also discovered for the fist time ever, cooking and I adore it and am pleased to say that many of the things I make turn out delicious to the delight of my friends, who enthusiastically let me know!
I've been able to set my own rhythms and with more clarity have been realizing that I alone am responsible for my own choices, decisions and feelings whereas before, I was lost in a sea of codependency as a roommate, always juxtaposed with other's thoughts, feelings and actions... This has been the most freeing thing for me, I believe. I've had room, a lot of room, to grow up. I care less what people think, and stand up for myself with more decision, and less apology. There's room for growth, always, but I love what I see in myself and who I'm becoming.
Seeing myself as a whole person has been exciting liberating and challenging all at once.
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